Being an Introvert on an Island full of Extroverts: Thoughts & Reflections

Good afternoon guys! Hope the new year is treating you well so far ๐Ÿ™‚

As some of you may have guessed, I’m not the most outgoing person. I’m quite the homebody, I don’t like huge crowds, I’m rarely ever spontaneous and I’m not close with many people; all things that I’m quite happy with, actually. Most of the time, I never really felt like I had to change who I was for others; I find peace in my solitude. And I’m thankful that I have friends and loved ones who understand that.

However, the country that I live in is pretty much a place where extroverts thrive. There’s always a party, always a reason to celebrate, and people tend to get together quite often. And whilst that isn’t necessarily a bad thing, sometimes it gets to be a little… overwhelming, to say the least.

Seeing everyone I know act one way, whilst I act in the complete opposite way, can tend to make me think and second-guess about the way that I normally handle things and situations. And after Christmas and New Year’s, looking at how everyone was celebrating friends and family whilst I was trying so hard not to be overwhelmed by everything, it got me thinking about how I am and how I express my feelings, and whether or not that’s “okay”. There were times when I’d wonder; what if I was a little bit more sociable? What if speaking to new people was just… more natural for me?

Suffice to say, it can get a little bit too much, and living in a country where you clash with your own culture… it can get lonely. I never really clicked with a lot of traditions and ways of thinking when it came to my culture, and for a long time, I never questioned it.ย  But some time ago, I began to think to second-guess myself, and it wasn’t pleasant. It made me feel like everything I knew no longer made sense, and I was at a complete loss at what to do. Should I change? Should I stay the same? Am I not trying enough?

2018 was a year of me testing my limits… doing things that I didn’t want to do, and saying yes way too often even when I knew that I was pushing my limits. As you can imagine, that limit was reached, and I slipped into a bit of an identity crisis. Every day, the same questions popped into my head: Who the hell am I? What do I want? What am I doing with my life? There were days when I couldn’t bear to get out of bed. I hated where I was in life and I didn’t know how to get out of it, and I didn’t know how to say no. Whatever I did was never enough. Staying at home felt too isolating, and going out was too overwhelming. And it felt like no one really understood how I was feeling, no matter who I talked to.

However, before the year ended, I knew I had to make some changes. So I left my job, kept a certain distance from friends, and focused on what I could: my studies, my books, my loved ones, and the blog! And I haven’t regretted my decisions at all since then. And slowly, I’m testing the waters again. I’m going out, sometimes, not for too long, and I’m enjoying myself. Socializing has never been easy for me, but I’m slowly getting the hang of it again.

Now I know that not everyone may agree with my choices, which I get, but here’s the thing… everyone’s journey is different, and we all have our own pace. I understand that my choices may not agree with yours, and I understand any concerns, but everyone’s needs are different. And that’s okay.

So please, in 2019, let’s all try to empathize a little more accepting with each other ๐Ÿ™‚ Being different is something to be celebrated, not questioned or looked down on!ย 

 

Are any of you introverts? What do you like most about yourself that others may question? Let’s all celebrate our differences in the comments below, introverts and extroverts alike!

 

Until next time,ย 

Alexia x

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  1. I totally get where you’re coming from! I’m an introvert myself, and while it’s not like there’re no other introverts around me, but many times in my life I’ve felt like I don’t completely belong here, in Hungarian culture. I’ve been to Malta by the way, and loved it! ๐Ÿ˜Š My father worked there for a couple of months, and he’s actually considering moving there sometime in the future. He’s pretty social, though! ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ˜€ But it must be different, and difficult if you’re not that kind of a person, and you actually lived your whole life there.

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words, Dora! โค๏ธAnd Iโ€™m so glad you and your dad liked Malta when you visited ๐Ÿ˜„ It does feel very isolating at times, but thankfully now Iโ€™m accepting that this is who I am, and Iโ€™m lucky to have some people in my life who always encourage me to be me. And yes, itโ€™s quite different! We have a very social and inclusive culture which, most of the time, can feel very suffocating. And Iโ€™m actually thinking of moving to a bigger city in Europa haha, as I love the feeling of anonymity! ๐Ÿ™ˆ

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      1. Yeah, I could see that when I’ve spent time there. There’re adventages of a close-knit community, obviously, but uncomfortable situations and expectations come from it, too. A bigger city somewhere in Europe sounds great! ๐Ÿ˜Š Which one are you thinking of? ๐Ÿ™‚

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      2. Exactly! And Iโ€™m not too sure yet honestly. Iโ€™ve only been to small no of cities so far, and I fell in love with all of them so itโ€™s really difficult for me to choose. Ideally I wouldโ€™ve chosen London because of all of the publishing houses there but Brexit is a mess soooo Iโ€™m really not sure ๐Ÿ™ˆ

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  2. Yeah, this Brexit stuff is a mess ๐Ÿ˜… I’ve been to a couple of bigger cities in Europe, and I’m not sure I could choose. I think my personal favorite was Brussels. I have some family there, so I really had time to get the vibe of the city, and I loved it! It’s big, but not so much that all the traffic and amount of people would make me anxious, and there’s an awful lot of different people there, living alongside each other. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. Oh my god, Brussels sounds great! I love the idea of different people loving alongside each other peacefully โค๏ธ canโ€™t wait to visit there one day, itโ€™s definitely on my list!

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